what’s next?

yep, finally kick my lazy bum to write something. Actually, I always have a lot of things to say but yeah maybe I haven’t make writing blog as my habit so here’s what i feelin’ now.

So… I finally graduated! yay me. honestly, this is really a good time to turn my head back and say, wow i did it. i’ve been learning piano since like 4 until now. but deep inside, i know i have so much more to go.

This mco made me explore about media/film/producing stuffs. and now im actually having dilemma on what i want to do next. I’m currently a teacher and a video editor/videographer of a newly built youtube channel but inside me, i know all of this are just my stepping stone.

There are so many things i want to learn and do, but thinking of studying master or another degree makes me think am i too late? I mean, not that im not willing to, but definitely think of my own financial first.

I really am interested in film stuffs honestly. like create/direct a film and also film scoring. like both parts of the production. but i seriously know that i could only choose one?

i really dont know what suits me now. to improve my musicality by studying music performance, or pursue something deeper like film scoring or should i try something new and go for filming/video editing?
Honestly, it is so hard to choose and i seriously want it both.

For me, i know i can learn things in both areas through internet or online courses but what bugs me is i lack of network and i dont think i can gain much network through online???? im not sure. it is so hard to be your own teacher and judgement choices and just wish there is someone to give me some advice.

well, i think that is what i want to say. really in serious dilemma. i secretly envy my friends that is having a job and you know, having their life sort of ongoing but im still struggling on is there a suitable job for me? or should i pursue more?

ok thats all. see ya on next post.

xoxos ❤